Plastered My Broken Heart With a Plastic Smile

here is a story u can feast on

two love story which is long gone

both different tale but similar tingling vibe

sit down and sink your teeth in 1/4 of my life

here goes the 1st tale

met him at this bbq

we shared the love for cats

he looked so great with his dudes

girl, the kind of feeling when you spot the perfect dress

u know what i mean

i'll let u figure out the rest

we text he called everyday

never get bored even when he just called to say hye

my bff Jue told me i was in love

coz she saw me dancing like a fool

laughing and giggling to myself though it ain't cool

i was happy soooo on cloud 7 8 9

told me he misses me

told me he loved me

asked me on a date i'll never forget

met up in town

when i saw him in the distance

i felt like my whole world was turned upside down

went to the movies for our 1st date

showed off his left dimple

pinch him on his tummy which made him twitched

had a principal of my own

"I never kiss a guy on the first date"

it just felt so right

i gave in, lean back in his arms

it felt divine

i never wanted the date to be over

he gave me a kiss on the hand

waved goodbye and gone from my sight

it was our 1st and our last

it didn't last long like how i expected

2 3 weeks passed

in a blink of an eye all the love turned to dust

i was heart broken all inside out

since then no one can sweep me off my feet

i can feel my whole body crumbles

damn, i was broken

ready for my 2nd story?

it happened recently

but my feelings for him was forever

French called it Noel

An alternative word for Christmas

Never thought I could ever have this feeling for him again

Liked him since the 1st time i saw him

Was young by then

Thought it was just a childhood crush

Seriously, i never thought i liked him this way

A feeling i recognize

The feeling that was long gone

Which i thought was lost for good

He told me he was insecure

Told him he has everything

He has nothing be be afraid of

Had our moments

I'd do anything and everything to see him

Hugged him at the strike 0f new year just to feel him near

Dyed his hair just to touch his hair

I'd give in everything for him

But I guess I wasn't his type

Should I just forget him

and let this thought slide?

The way I see things

It is not meant to be

Maybe God has much better plan for me

But all the things he does is so sweet

They blow me away, sweep me off my feet

Damn, he was a real treat

Now you see

I do get hurt as much as u

I'd take it all in and hold it in

Take it as a compass to my next journey

Further into the future

My life is full of agony

Just that I swallow it all in and cover it all up

Plastered my broken heart with a plastic smile

Used to act tough

But now I really am

Thank you for the pain

Now I've gained

Something precious even money can't buy

Something so rare not even written in books

Last night, I sat in my room

Thinking

Confused

The tears i've cried

The angers that i've screamed

Enough!

I'm done