end up disappointed..

i dnt noe.. sometimes i feel like i don't matter that much.. almost everytime we meet nw, i feel disappointed.. i dnt noe y... eventhough he has helped me so much financially.. but then its still not enuf.. im not trying to be a brat but what is not enuf is his attention.. i dnt gv a shit about the money or wadever shit he buys me.. i jz want his attention! everytime we r together, there is must be something.. there is always something comes up..! i dnt noe.. maybe i dnt show him much love or attention.. but.. i m trying my best.. i always mke sure that he is happy... give him wad he wnts... i dnt noe.. but i feel like i dnt matter that much to him... dats hw i feel.. n dats from my point of view.. i dnt know about from his point of view.. i am trying everything i can to do to get his attention and spend time wid him before i go bck miri for my 3 months holiday.. bk0z wen the holiday starts, it'll be 3 months i won't get to c him.. dats hard 4 me... i love him wid all my heart. and i try my very best to let him noe dat i do... but stil i feel it isnt enuf.. hmmmm....

gotta get things done!

dammit man.... i havnt done much for my course... shit shit shit.. packaging for design studies is due next week.. TUESDAY!!! n i hvnt even confirm d design and print it out... goodness me.... perghhh.. den i hv 11 interior drawing... den i hv 9 drawings for mr.greg's klaz due the week after next week.. shit man.. den i hv another assignmnt coming up for graphic design.. dammit!!! i gotta get things done.. if not... im really in deep shit! oh ya.. englisshhh... fuck man! i m all packed.. help me~ :(

day and night..

day and night..

its different...

the colors...

the situation and the environment...

the feelings u feel wen its day light its more to fun and cheerful..

but night...

u'll feel scared, alone and lonely wen u hv no one...

hmmm...

dats hw i feel wen its night time...

i hv no friends to hang out with...

n life is so much harder..

i cry most of the time...

but i try to stay stronger...

i noe the reason y i m away...

to have a bright future...

hmmm...

but how can have a bright future...

wen its dark, she loses her grip...

and fall into the darkness...

hmmm...

day and night...

even the stars are having more fun than me...

wad m i gonna do?

life is hard wen u r alone...

alone in ur room..

staring at nothing...

its scary...

will i also live this way wen im old?

damn...

it scares me...

day and night...

two different views...

so contrast with each other...