end up disappointed..

i dnt noe.. sometimes i feel like i don't matter that much.. almost everytime we meet nw, i feel disappointed.. i dnt noe y... eventhough he has helped me so much financially.. but then its still not enuf.. im not trying to be a brat but what is not enuf is his attention.. i dnt gv a shit about the money or wadever shit he buys me.. i jz want his attention! everytime we r together, there is must be something.. there is always something comes up..! i dnt noe.. maybe i dnt show him much love or attention.. but.. i m trying my best.. i always mke sure that he is happy... give him wad he wnts... i dnt noe.. but i feel like i dnt matter that much to him... dats hw i feel.. n dats from my point of view.. i dnt know about from his point of view.. i am trying everything i can to do to get his attention and spend time wid him before i go bck miri for my 3 months holiday.. bk0z wen the holiday starts, it'll be 3 months i won't get to c him.. dats hard 4 me... i love him wid all my heart. and i try my very best to let him noe dat i do... but stil i feel it isnt enuf.. hmmmm....