my family cmes 1st n i love dem

my family n i.. d reason for everything i m still here.. i love dem..

the king of d house! Mr Lakai.. heee~ he is d man dat make evrything happens!

my mama.. mdm selena.. i love her so much.. n i miss her lyk crazy!! :(

my lil bro after me.. mr nigel parril lakai.. d fashionista in d family.. he is so high taste.. vry syg n soft wid kids n ppl he love bt den if i kiss or hug him, he'll kick me.. he is big! :D bt den i love his bigness.. i miss 

him..

my lil bro.. mr nathaniel imang lakai... d youngest, d guitarist and d most most manjakkk 1 in my family.. i love calling him sweetchicks and i love kissing him on d cheeks eventho he'll beat me up evrytime i do it.. haha

the king n queen of my heart..

ove dem sooooooooo much...

n i miss dem.. d reason why i m stil alive n stil breathing the air for 19 yrs nw! :D

my two silly sweetchicks! i love dem.. bt den if i kiss dem.. n tell dem i love dem.. dey'll say i m GAY! :D n dey will chase me n hit me.. bt den i miss dem hitting me for kissing dem.. hehehehe..

nathaniel, my daddy, my mama n nigel.. love dem so much...

today is the 9th of April.. hmm.. mama's bday.. n damn today i feel so down.. not today only actually... diz few days... ive been missing homee.. n ive been getting mad at everyone who is close to me, my hubby... hmmm... i m jz stress out.. there is so many things running thru my mind.. uni life, peers, assignmnts, my love life, my family back home.. 

wad i miss more is my family...

mama most of all...

granddad and blackiee and everybody...

mama im sorry i cnt be home for ur bday....

i love u mama...

i wish i was home 2nyte celebrating her bday wid her.... 

i miss everybody...

fuuhhhh!!

my mama..

my head is pumping so hard now...

i called dem jz now.. talked to mama.. talked to my granddad.. talked to my aunt ina.. asking bout baby fidelis... almost forgot dat he ever existed.. haha.. bt i really cnt 4get c0z i was d 2nd 1 to name baby fideliss... i talked to imang... got to joke around wid him 4 awhlee... aunty evaa.. saying hye to everyonee.. including my ex-bf in form 3 who is now my c0usin's cousin.. haha... well... den i talked to daddy... wen i start talking to daddy... i started feeling wanna cry... i dnt noe y.. it seems lyk i miss him more than i miss mama.. bt den.. i m not vry close to him at all.. i think its bk0z i hvnt talked or smsed him 4 long.. i feel bad jz msging him wen i nid money.. hmm.. wad a bad daughter i m being.. bt mama always say dat it isnt my fault.... i dnt noe wad she meant by dat.. haha.. or maybe c0z daddy is not really around n close to my brothers n i..

hmmm...

how i wish i m home rite nw....

i m sooooooo much jealous dat i am not home..

mama told me dat everyone is missing me n talking bout me...

:) dey seem to miss my presents... i miss dem too... all of dem...

u noe wad.. being away from my family makes me appreciate dem more n mke me realise dat family always comes first in my all most important list...

family are the ones who r always around wen u nid dem...

dey will never let u down or leave u wen u r in bad conditions...

bad or gud.. dey r always der to help u up n support u wen d world is looking down at u..

hmmmm... my family... i miss dem soooooo much.... n i love dem so much...

1st Day of The Month of April..! :D

morning morning morning.. its Wednesday ppl..~ hw r u 2day?? hw r d wife n kids?? hahaha... wow! can u imagine dat! nw its been lyk 3 months im in swinburne.. n lots of things has happened... from assignments and to friends also.. trouble trouble trouble! wait! i m not saying dat friends are troublee... i m jz saying dat its hard to kp a gud friendship if u r not considerate n no understanding.. had a vry huge fight or may i say arguement wid one of my beloved galfren last 2 days.. n it made me cry 4 almost 2 hours! dammit! i m soooooooooooooooooo sorry bout wad hppn... wad i hate d most is hurt my friends.. i feel so damn guilty! but i hope things will turn out ok soon.. i miss her..

ok ok ok...

no sadness in d morning pweety pwease!

i m jz starting my day so its not gud..!

*sigh*

stomach status : hungry n thirsty!

mood : 50% happy 50% undefine! shit

i m actually pissed wid him...

ada ka ptt nya tertido balit...

adoi adoi..

dah la lewaaaaatt~!

ish ish ishhh!!!

geram hati eyhhh!

ok ok ooookkeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyy!!

fuuhhh!!~

relax relax

awal pagi tok babeee.. not vry gud.. brp kali dah mek padah tok...

myza oh myzaa.. spt biasaa... geng keras swinburne.. dari matahari terbit ke matahari berderoookkk tidooo nang tetaaak jak la keja mek duaak! huihuiiihh... best best!!

lam kelas nektok! seeejok lalu eh.. nasib juak mek pakey sweater! wee!! sik juak sejok gilaakk...

mun sik beku... dah la tgh cold shoulde ngan heater mek! waaa! jaik baaa!!! sapa suruh nya tido agik.. org suruh bgn.. sik bgn.. tdo gik.. dah la lewat lalu! kan pagi pagi mek mok bah look at his face b4 i do anything.. look at him smiling at me n gv me a morning kiss on my hand! ishhh! ada gik nya dtg gi kelas mek tek.. dtg agak! biarnya.. mek sik nangga nya kat luar.. mek halau nyaa.. shhuhh! i m in klaz la sayang! dnt dsturb.. i gave u time from 8am till i masuk kelas.. u lambat.. rasain loo...

dah la mek lapar tok.. haus gik.. eee.. macam2.. mok berak gik mek tok.. mok gi toilet.. apa ka! euw!! myza!! mek mok beraakkk! p mok kencing juak! adeyh.. so many technical problems! adeyh adeyh... help me!! nei lecturer tok.. mek mok gi toilet.. bleh ka kuar jak?? p takut juak.. lvl 5 tok.. ada sik toilet bgs ooo... eeuuwww! mun sikpat pam air! euw! euw! euw! cidaak eyh.. ish.. ya nya! cidak eh klaka sal berak n air n euw! aaaaa... i wanna go to the toilet... pls pls pls.. jap.. nyk lecturer lok.. leh sik.. brb ya!!~

fuhh! legaaa! hahaha.. mun myza baca tok nang tetaak cam apa...

cukup la tok dolok....

to0dlesss!!~

Homesick :(

Here i sit alone
So much in my mind n heart
Beside a wide open window
The sun shining through
The birds chirping n singing
How i missed home

The sound of laughter
The boys running here n there
Wrestling and teasing each other
Oh, how i missed the times
When they annoy me
And made me mad

The aroma of mama's kitchen
Homemade cookings
Smell of liquour spills on the counter
The smell smoke and food in my hair
Mama's high tone
When she ask for a hand

His fur and paws
So cute and adorable
Missing his touch and his gesture
The smell of his paw and his big yellow eyes
His meow asking for attention
and his meow asking for food

The man of the house
The man who makes everything happen
Trying hard to make us all happy
Who gave us such luxury
Who gave us a comfortable home
He is my daddy, head of this family

I am here alone
In another part of the country
Never been away from home
Now i realise wad is important to me
My beautiful family and my home sweet home
And now i realise i wanna go home :(

7 Jan 2009