feelings

what i'm feeling now may just be FEELINGS..
but i'm not sure to trust these feelings...
what i'm feeling right now is betrayed, cheated, paranoid, sad, tears are just hanging by the corner of my eyes...
could it be that i'm just lonely?
could it be that i've used to mingle there and not here?
goodness...
i'm never like this..
never used to be like this..
i used to be sensible and i believe in loyalty..
now, it just seemed that every word is a lie..
what should i do?
how is the best way to deal with this?
i don't want things to go out of control than i know the truth...
even if the truth is revealed..
how sure am i that it is not just another lie?
these days lies are often told than the truth..
it is fond by majority of people..
white lies? its also a lie..
i don't believe if its a lie for something good..
a lie is a lie..
no difference..
how i wish i have the ability to read minds and hearts..
so i would if my feelings are true or i'm just being paranoid..
damn..
i am confused.. hmmm

not even will do us part.

Lying down in your arms,
I never wanna get up,
I just wanna feel you close to me,
Play and tease your hair,

Cuddle up on your couch,
Watch our favorite movie on TV,
Tickle my feet with yours,
Kiss my forehead and tell me you love me,

I let you go before,
I was filled up with jealousy and anger,
I was suffering inside & reached a point where i hate you,
But deep inside I missed you & baby I need you,

I want you baby,
I need you every now and then,
You mean so much to me,
I'm never gonna let you go again,

I'm thankful that you came back,
I'm thankful for what you've did,
I'm thankful that He opened my heart again,
I'm grateful we are together once more,

Every night before I close my eyes,
I bow down my head and pray,
That every morning when I wake up,
You'll be there lying next to me,

I promise you this,
You have my heart,
You have my soul,
I love you & I'll never let you go,

I can't do this alone baby,
Please promise to me too,
You'll never let me go,
That we'll be together forever,

Lets make a solemn vow,
Never to leave each other's side,
I'm yours baby,
Not even death will do us part.

I love you.

Dedicated to Busi Busi.

don't let me do this alone

hmmm... i don't know.. i just... hmmm.. i just feel so empty inside...