feelings

what i'm feeling now may just be FEELINGS..
but i'm not sure to trust these feelings...
what i'm feeling right now is betrayed, cheated, paranoid, sad, tears are just hanging by the corner of my eyes...
could it be that i'm just lonely?
could it be that i've used to mingle there and not here?
goodness...
i'm never like this..
never used to be like this..
i used to be sensible and i believe in loyalty..
now, it just seemed that every word is a lie..
what should i do?
how is the best way to deal with this?
i don't want things to go out of control than i know the truth...
even if the truth is revealed..
how sure am i that it is not just another lie?
these days lies are often told than the truth..
it is fond by majority of people..
white lies? its also a lie..
i don't believe if its a lie for something good..
a lie is a lie..
no difference..
how i wish i have the ability to read minds and hearts..
so i would if my feelings are true or i'm just being paranoid..
damn..
i am confused.. hmmm