leave wad is mine alone..!

i dnt noe wads going on.. my body and soul is aching.. i feel like letting go.. i cant anymore.. my hands are shaking wen i think of it.. is it so hard to have sme1 i 1 just for my own?!?!?! for as long as i can rmmbr, all my life, there is always sme1 else who also wants wad i hv.. y can't dey just leave me alone in peace..?????? wad do dey wnt me to do??? act like a dog n piss to mark my territory???? fuck off! get your own.. y mess wid mine???????? everyone has a limit.. wen it has jumped over the fucking limit.. u will not want to live anymore.. u will regret the fucking day u were born! i dnt noe wad dey call this.. teenage problem or wad ever shit u call it.. but this is too much!! this is bullshit..!! seriously, bullshit..!! i have my rights.. i have my every motherfuckin' rights ok?!

fuck wad in the world do u dnt understand?! wad is mine is mine! put fucked up self in my shoes, how wud u feel wen ppl are all over wads urs?!?! if u r happy about it, u must be out of ur fucking mind! u r fucking crazy! everyone has their limits.. i have a limit.. i keep it in till it reaches boils and ready to burst..! wen it does, i'll be cruel beyond anything u can imagine!!!!

don't drift away..

days go by,

just in a blink of an eye,

sitting here wondering what the future may bring,

will it be sufferings?

or you'll give me a diamond ring,

i don't have a clue why my heart feels this way,

its only beating for you i swear,

i guess that is the reason why,

when you are away don't you know my heart cries?

my heart's tears could break down a dam,

can't you hear my heart calling out your name?

my head feels heavy,

everytime you leave,

i always want you here with me,

i just can't get enough of you,

can't you see?

what can i do to make you stay?

take my favorite plushie if you may,

if it could make you stay,

do you want the moon?

i'll tie a rope around it and pull it down for you,

i'll even go on the back of a wild stallion or a killer whale for you,

nothing is impossible when it comes to you,

baby, hear my heart screams for you,

can't you see its turning red to blue??

sweetheart, i miss you,

all those times when we used to spend till the night turns yellow,

i miss those moments,

where nothing and no one can make it go to an end,

love, hear my pain,

you are the blood that runs through my veins,

if there are mistakes that i've done,

please forgive me don't go away don't be gone,

you are the one who keeps me alive,

please don't drift away 'cos it'll end my life..

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the cries of a lonely heart..

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im jz hurt.. im very very hurt..